I just found my account info after two years and decided to log in. Alot has changed and alot has remained the same. I'm still me I think.

I dunno whats going on anymore. My life is fucked up and confusing. Thats all I guess.

Ok, long story short, savanna and i broke up after 2 years and i couldnt be more relieved. Ever since she moved in last august its been downhill and now we have been apart for over a month.

Ok its been over a year since i've put anything on here so heres an update. savanna and i are still together its been a year and a half now. my sister had her baby. you can see pics of him in my gallery. he's adorable. thats about it.

I never thought that I would be writing this, but I think I am actually happy for the first time that I can remember. I am in love. I have a new girlfriend. I am the first girl she has ever really been with. Her name is Savanna. I love her so much. I have never really felt like this since my only other serious relationship ended last year. Since then it has only been casual stuff with my friends and people I know. She is so in love with me and we are so happy. I wish that I thought it would last forever, but for now I am just trying not to think too far into the future. It is kinda difficult because we have to keep it a secret. My mother doesn't know about me. Her aunt that she lives with doesn't know about her and she would get kicked out of her house if they knew. I wish things were easier for us, but that is just the way our town is. Gay relationships aren't exactly applauded here. Why do I have to live in redneck central. I hate southern Indiana. Anyway I just wanted to write this because obviously I can't tell anyone here and I am too happy to not tell anyone at all. I hope you all have a great summer like I am having.